FROWNING Attack

I don’t understand. Again, I couldnt understand. Have I done something not-so-good?

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Felt empty. Just waiting for someone.

I felt so alone. 90% portion is missing from my chest. No call, no text, not even a “Hi”. I might looked tough outside – playing, be annoying, debating. But I feel so cold inside. Every night before sleep, tears of fear and thoughts of lone accompany me for my bold slumber.

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I miss thee

Maybe, if there were no heavy-big-rocky-rock in between, I would not feel this way. I could just express what I want, doing what I can, meeting whomever I long for. Unfortunate me, I live in “prison-life”. I would be marked ungrateful for expressing what I felt unfair. Banned from meeting my family. No rights to speak. Be blamed for something that I did’nt do. Sad thing about it is, I am a one lone ranger in this rocky walk path.

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I need a hug and a shoulder to cry on

I just need a hug, and a shoulder to cry on. Is that too much to asked?

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Wise man once said, “Design your own life, be a boss for yourself. Because if you don’t, someone will. Well, you know if other people planned for you – NOT MUCH. So never let anybody takes control of your life.”

IF THIS WOULD BE JUST EASY. But I’m so tied up. I think I just need to accept more.

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Waiting for a chance I get to see you

Maybe, I am so longing from where I belong. Maybe there is a chance coming up to me. Maybe someone is keeping an eye on me. I just need to close my eyes and hoping these to happen. Because I can’t hold it for long – the big-lumps-of-missing-someone is getting fuller and bigger.

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Shoo . Shoo. Shoo the sad

This yearning for love, I hope it ends.

I Want It So Bad! But It Was Not for Me, MAYBE.

Whoa..! It’s been a long time since I’ve been here. Dah bersawang. Kesian blog ni, bila Tuan dia rasa nak luah something, baru lah nak bukak. Kalau tidak, memang sampai kucing bertanduk dua pon tak dilayannya.

Itu lahh. I guesses I really need a meditation here.

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OPPO wants me?

Last week, I received a phone call from OPPO. I’ve been chosen to go for an interview working for them.  And I was like, “OPPO kot??! OMG OMG”. To me it is a GREAT opportunity since we all know yang OPPO is one of the world leading technology brand, yg sememang nya tengah trending!

I come clean. I’m not someone who follows and updating status of what smartphone would be released next, expert in choosing a good smartphone, and someone who would easily throw thousand bucks for a new released smartphone. Well, since I couldn’t afford one. hehe. Make sense ye dak?

You have no idea, that I have your photos.

You have no idea, that I have your photos.

But I found its intriguing ever since I saw a smartphone with a ROTATING CAMERA. And hell yeah that’s mean I get to have selfie dengan gambar yg jelas memandangkan same 16MP for both rear & front camera! Secara tak langsung I put it in my wishlist pocket. Memang tak tahu menahu pon yg previously OPPO has released “World First Smartphone with Rotating Camera” N1. There were no much differences, but still both of them are not alike. N3 improved for better in many aspects, for sure duhhhh~

I FIT in this Position

I FIT in this Position

Okay, I was Super-Duper-Bumper Over-Excited for this interview. I prepared and studied what I need to, dari history and background, ke smartphones yg dah released, hingga lah kempen yg tgh run. Pendek kata, every inches details yg ada di OPPO website tu I dah khatam! Tak cukup dgn itu, I analyzed and compared every OPPO smartphones specs. Plus, study pasal smartphones. Me, from 20% knowledge of smartphones; has got almost 80% knowledge! I now can even know how to choose a good one. Frame apa yg diguna, how good the ppi is, what type of processor used etc etc bla bla.

in OPPO, of course :P

in OPPO, of course :P

Supposedly, interview held on MONDAY, DEC 8. 3:30PM

Numbers on the clock showing 2PM, there only an hour to go. I thought.

But, something very personal came up last minute. I have been ordered TO CANCEL MY THOUGHT to go for the interview. What?? You were supposed to decide this at first place! Not changing your mind after I’ve been crazy studying day and night, and lastly it’s not worth the time. I’m not a chessman that you can move here and there whenever you want. For someone who playing chess, it might be fun for them to decide their rules on some chessboard. But for someone who be a chessman, its may tiring following all way around on a chessboard! Well, since we’re human; not a chessman. I am so SAD TO DEATH. And for the record, my TEARS DROP FOR SKIPPING AN INTERVIEW. whoa. Felt like I was just letting go something BIG. Because I want to work for OPPO so badly!

Cry baby want an interview

Cry baby want an interview

But then I realized, semua yg terjadi adalah kehendak ALLAH. No matter what situation I’m in right now, HE chose it for me. HE knows best. And HE will give me the best. If I just be patient and wait, maybe HE’ll give something bigger in return.

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia baik utk mu. Dan blh jd kamu menyukai sesuatu, pdhal ia tidak bagus bg mu. Allah jua yg mengetahui, sdg kamu tidak mngetahui.” ~alBaqarah,216

HE knows what best for me

HE knows what best for me

Now I do realize that I should not let what I’ve studied about OPPO and smartphones will go to waste. I will not let that happen. A BIG NO NO.

Stay Tune for my next chapter, I will feed you a story-telling of “OPPO 101”. Plus free basic chapter 1 – smartphones.

Till next time.

Summer Ice Cream Treats

what a cute storyline! luv it

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Today’s post is another summer-inspired set using Cu-Poche Haruka Amami by Kotobukiya, Nendoroid Miku 2.0, Nendoroid Ruri Gouku, Nendoroid Kirino Kousaka, Nendoroid Hakase and Nano, Nendoroid Mirai Suenaga and Nendoroid Saber Lion – all by Good Smile Company. That ice cream cart was made for Haruka’s photos last time, I just redesigned it a little.

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Oh No! Otak marah Hati lagi.

Dalam dunia ini memang tidak pernah lari daripada percintaan antara manusia. Tidak kiralah sama ada sweet couple, happy marriage, or happy family. Kita selalu leka berkasih dengan manusia. Then somethings happen, ada salah faham mula lah nak menyuarakan isi hati yang sudah lama terpendam. Ada yang mengeluh mereka dah tak serasi dapat memahami satu sama lain. Ada yang mengeluh sikap yang berubah. Well, I know rata-rata kita semua mahukan the beloved guy/girl jadi yang terbaik untuk kita. Jangan tipu. Sebab who the hell on this dangerous-and-adventurous earth yang taknak hidup happy dengan pasangan. But before that, have we ever look into ourselves and fix us to be a much better person? Seriously. Have we?

Tiba-tiba otak mencelah, “ala, dia tu pun bukannya baik sangat. Dia tu pun dalam diam tapi banyak buat kita menangis. So, kenapa pulak kita je yang bersusah-payah nak betulkan kelemahan yang ada pada diri kita?”

Hati bersih paling dalam jawab, “ Tak, tak. Semua manusia tidak perfect. But at least we don’t have to be such a jerk.”

Otak: mula-mula dulu hati tahu pula nak bercinta. Padahal otak kata jangan sebab nanti hati sedih. Tapi otak mengalah sebab hati kata this one is different. Tapi tanpa sedar cinta dalam hati tumbuh subur, makin lama makin banyak. Hati buat mata Nampak dunia ini indah sebab kita ada that one guy. Tapi tidakkah hati sedar bila hati menangis, boleh buat otak nampak bodoh?

Otak dan hati janganlah tak sependapat ya,sayang-sayang ku. Otak kena selalu ingatkan hati tapi otak jangan lah terlalu overthinking pula sampai cakap nak bercinta dengan manusia pun tidak boleh. Otak kena selalu fikir positif. Tan tahu otak sayang hati. Sebab macam mana marah pun otak pada hati, banyak mana otak dah penat membebel pada si hati, tapi otak tidak pernah tinggalkan hati keseorangan.

Tapi hati janganlah selalu berharap tinggi sangat. Hati sudah cukup baikkah sampai nak mengeluh apa yang orang buat dekat kita? Tidak pernahkah hati tanya mata dah berapa banyak menitiskan air sebab hati sedih? Hati kena tabah. Hati mesti kuat ya,sayang. Hati kena selalu tenang.

Have we ever asked ourselves why it’s never work out between us? Yes, we always asked. But the thing is, we always pointed at somebody’s fault. We don’t see what we have done to other people. We never realized that’s what had happen might started from us. Instead of pointing somebody’s mistakes, we fix our own mistakes first. Instead of waiting people talk to us, we talk to them first. Instead of questioning people why they dont treat us nicely like before, we answering ourself by treating them

A reminder for brain; including all brains out there (not forgetting brains for zombies), instead of always thinking and questioning, please directs body to take a step first. A reminder to heart; be strong, baby. Gives love to people but don’t expect more. They’re human too and they also make mistakes. Jangan pentingkan diri tau. Tapi jangan mengalah dengan kehidupan.

Sometimes we cried not because what others have done to us. Maybe it’s because our brain over thinking till makes our heart sad, afraid of what may happen. Be kind to our heart and stop worrying of things out of our control. Let Allah handles them :)

You can plan and think for the future, but don’t ever stress out of it. Future hasn’t arrived yet.

Otak: oh now i’m stressed too much. All because of you are afraid of losing him, intan. I told you not to count on all the promises.

You can take a step back and look what was wrong about the past, but don’t cry over it. The past is gone.

Hati: how could I not cried if I’ve let things happened without thinking how much it will regret me someday.

Instead of regretting what you’ve done in the past, and stressing what will happen in future, just live in the present and make it beautiful.

Just like what people always say, fella.

Saya tahu dan saya faham. Orang akan berkata, “cakap memang la senang. Tapi kita yang tanggung, kita yang rasa. Orang takkan faham.”

Oh please, dear.

Sometimes kita rasa dah tidak ada yang memahami, tapi kita lupa Tuhan itu Maha Mengetahui. Sometimes kita rasa keseorangan dan kurang kasih sayang, padahal Tuhan itu Amat luas kasih-Nya dan tidak pernah tinggalkan hamba-Nya keseorangan. As long as we put Him first before him, we will never feel such a loser person.

And my last words – Semua orang mahu Mr. /Ms. Right. But if we first take the chances to become Mr/Ms Right, tak payah tunggu dan tidak perlu cari. I promise you, the true Mr/Ms Right will come in your way.

p/s: bercinta, bercinta juga. Tapi jangan lupa cinta pada Yang Satu. Food for thought :)

Bonjour! or Bon Jovi? Yeah here I go.

Hhahah! Every time I hear either one of these 2 words, I laugh. Oh no, no. bukan berniat menggelakkan title 2 perkataan ni, tapi gelak sebab lucu (sebut/dengar perkataan lucu pun boleh tergelak). Lucu sebab mengingatkan saya pada satu scene dalam movie The Tourist. Johnny Depp supposed to reply with “Bonjour”, not “Bon Jovi”.

Megan Fox pun nak say Hi. Takkan Johnny Depp je.

This is my first Hello to blogging world. Oh tak lupa juga pada semua bloggers and non-blogger who visit here. Frankly, I was a lazy-ass typer. Yeah really, I prefer talking rather than writing. But since I have to write tons of theses on my project, guess I have to move on. But talking is always being my favourite.

So, kenapa saya start blogging? There’s 3 people on this earth are the reason why I do it. Oh no, honey. That’s not sounds right. Semua perkara yang kita lakukan mesti start dari diri kita sendiri. Yang lain adalah sebagai motivator si pemberi semangat atau inspirasi (jangan sesekali mengendahkan mereka). Jika kita meletakkan diri kita sebagai sebab untuk melakukan sesuatu, barulah rasa happy. Or is it just me? Those 3 people memang dah lama tanya saya, “Intan, bila nak start menulis?”. Sometimes I feel like I always being told of what to do. But I never took a second just to think why they’ve been like that. Or why I thought like this. Semuanya berpunca dari diri saya sendiri kerana saya akan betul-betul rajin untuk melakukan sesuatu jika memang saya sendiri yang ingin melakukannya. Same goes here.

“oh payah la macam tu. Kalau banyak benda bagus yang taknak buat, sampai bila-bila pun tak buat.”

Haa betul tu. Sebab itu perlu wujudnya orang yang selalu push dan suruh saya buat itu-ini. Not that I don’t even want to do it. I really want to give a try on something I’ve never done. But I’ll do it once you’ve stop asking me to because that’s when I do something with sincerity. And sincerity leads me to happiness.

The truth is saya memang memerlukan 3 orang tu kerana tanpa mereka saya takkan ada disini dalam keadaan sedang menaip, dan ber-blogging. Just think them as sparks to start a fire. .To those 3 people, I’m really sorry for being so stubborn and slow. I may seem like I hate listening ya’ll, and I’m sorry for that. I love you, guys. And I never forget to thank God for having ya’ll in my life. Not to mention that I have to exhale all these bad-sluggish-things-that-covering-my-diligent-nature from me.

"Go,go fly away you Lazy! I wannabe a good girl now." (Comel kan budak ni?)

Most of all bila fikir betul-betul, blogging memberi semangat untuk mencari banyak idea (which is very important in our daily lives) disamping motivate me into writing. But now I guess my laziness comes back and tell me to stop typing sebab perut tengah practice main trumpet dengan lagu nya bertajuk “Where’s my Lovely Breakfast”. So dengan ini saya mengisytiharkan akan stop typing at the end of 31st December 2011 until next year ;)